rough times.

life has never been this tough for me and for my baby. but partly more on baby's side. for me, it's tough to see my friends go to school, getting themselves occupied with their school work and thier CCAs. but for me, i just sit at home and do nothing. ok fine, i do workout here and there, but it's still not enough. now, im trying to find a job and i hope i'll get this one. i don't really care what type of job i'll get, as long as it's a decent one. well, tts it for me, i guess.

on the other hand, baby is making her way out of the hellhole. we thought april is her month for joy and happiness. yea, there is, but it seems like more on being sad and depressed. so i helped her out, adviced her about stuffs that happened in school or at home or anywhere. in school, it's tough for her cos of all the workload and the burden on her shoulders. at home, it's a whole different story. and her emotions just added to all the pain she's going through. well, it can't be helped right?

anyway, i tried to console her and cheered her up. it was good, but not for long. cos after that, there'll be something else that will pop out, something related to 'bad'. i really pity baby soooo much about what she's going through since she's not used to being in this kind of situation. that's i'm telling her that i'll always be here for her. and she's not gonna go through this all alone. plus she got her other lil feminine guardian angels that care so much about her. i really appreciate what they're doing. they're what i call true friends. don't lose them baby, or it'll be ur loss.

so, among all the bad things that happened lately, today is officially the 4th month i'm together with my baby girl. YAY!!!! (gosh, it feels like it has been like 4 years!!) our relationship turn out really good and it's getting better. we're soooo much closer than anyone could have ever been. all the promises and the plans we made, let's wish and work or way that it'll come true.

oouuuuuhhh, baby just called me by the way, she said she misses me alot and she's checking up on me.
awwwwwwwwwww...babyyyyyyyyy....
i soooo love u! =)

anyway, it's like 5 more days to baby's 18th birthday!! yay!! we plan to celebrate it with the lil feminine guardian angels on the 19th. baby, do me a favor, let's get excited on ur birthday, especially when we're celebraing it. thank u soooo much! heeeee!!! =))))))

happy forth monthsary baby girl!
4 down, forever to go.



ps, i got a suprise for u. =))))